Monday, January 24, 2011

Way Of Perfection - Chapter 10 - St. Teresa of Avila

CHAPTER 10




 Teaches 
 - that detachment from the things aforementioned 
         is insufficient 
    if we are not detached from our own selves and

 - that this virtue and humility go together.


Once we have detached ourselves 
      from the world, and 
       from our kinsfolk,
and are cloistered here, 
      in the conditions already described, 
it must look as if 
       - we have done everything and 
       - there is nothing left with which
             we have to contend. 

But, oh, my sisters, 
    do not 
          feel secure and 
          fall asleep, 
    or you will be like a man 
          who goes to bed quite peacefully,
            after bolting all his doors for fear of thieves, 
          when the thieves are already in the house
And you know there is no worse thief 
   than one who lives in the house

We, ourselves, are always the same; [33] 
    unless 
              we take great care and 
              each of us looks well to it 
          that she renounces her self-will
              which is the most important business of all, 

    there will be many things to deprive us 
           of the holy freedom of spirit 
          which our souls seek 
               in order to soar to their Maker 
          unburdened by the leaden weight of the earth.

It will be a great help towards this 
  if we keep constantly in our thoughts 
              the vanity of all things and 
              the rapidity with which they pass away

   so that we may 
      - withdraw our affections from things 
                   which are so trivial and 
      - fix them upon what will never come to an end

This may seem a poor kind of help 
   but it will have the effect 
        of greatly fortifying the soul. 

With regard to small things, 
   we must be very careful to, 
as soon as we begin to grow fond of them, 
       - withdraw our thoughts from them and 
       - turn them to God. 

His Majesty will help us to do this. 

He has granted us the great favour of providing 
that,  in this house, 
  most of it is done already; 
but it remains for us
  to become detached from our own selves and 

it is a hard thing to 
      - withdraw from ourselves and 
      - oppose ourselves
   because we 
        are very close to ourselves and 
        love ourselves very dearly.

It is here that true humility can enter, [34] for
    this virtue   (of  humility) and 
    that (virtue) of  detachment from self,  I think, 
         always go together
They are two sisters, who are inseparable. 

These are not the kinsfolk 
    whom I counsel you to avoid: 
no, you must 
       embrace them, and 
       love them, and 
       never be seen without them. 

Oh, how sovereign are these virtues
 - mistresses of all created things, 
 - empresses of the world, 
 - our deliverers from all the snares and entanglements
        laid by the devil,
 - so dearly loved by our Teacher, Christ, 
      Who was never for a moment without them! 

He that possesses them can 
     - safely go out and 
     - fight all the united forces of
              hell and 
              the whole world and 
              its temptations. 

Let him fear none, 
   for his is the kingdom of the Heavens. 

There is none whom he need fear, 
  for he cares nothing 
     if he loses everything, 
     nor does he count this as loss: 

his sole fear is 
     that he may displease his God 

and he begs Him to nourish these virtues within him   
     lest he lose them through any fault of his own.

These virtues, it is true, 
    have the property of hiding themselves 
      from one who possesses them,  in such a way 
    that he 
             - never sees them 
             - nor can believe that he has any of them, 
                   even if he be told so. 

But he esteems them so much 
   that he is for ever trying to obtain them, and 
thus he perfects them in himself more and more. 

And those who possess them soon
     make the fact clear, 
even against their will, 
    to any with whom they have intercourse. 

But how inappropriate it is 
     for a person like myself
 to begin to praise humility and mortification, 
    when these virtues are so highly praised 
          by the King of Glory 
       --a praise exemplified in all the trials He suffered. 

It is to possess these virtues, then, my daughters,
    that you must labour 
       if you would leave the land of Egypt,

for, when you have obtained them, 
    you will also obtain the manna; 

all things will taste well to you; and, 
however much the world may dislike their savour, 
   to you they will be sweet.

The first thing, then, 
    that we have to do, and 
    that at once,
 is to rid ourselves of love for this body of ours

      --and some of us pamper our natures so much 
            that this will cause us no little labour, 

        while others are so concerned about their health 
            that the trouble these things give us 
                  ( this is especially so of poor nuns, 
                     but it applies to others as well ) 
               is amazing. 

Some of us, however, seem to think
  that we embraced the religious life 
      for no other reason
   than to keep ourselves alive [35] 
      and each nun does all she can to that end. 

In this house, as a matter of fact, 
   there is very little chance for us 
        to act on such a principle, 
but I should be sorry 
        if we even wanted to. 

Resolve, sisters, 
    that it is 
            - to die for Christ, and 
            - not to practise self-indulgence for Christ,
    that you have come here. 

The devil tells us
     that self-indulgence is necessary 
        if we are to 
            carry out and 
             keep the Rule of our Order, and 
     so many of us, forsooth, 
            try to keep our Rule 
            by looking after our health 
   that we die without having kept it for 
      as long as a month-- perhaps even for a day. 

I really do not know what we are coming to.

No one need be afraid 
     of our committing excesses here, 
           by any chance
      --for as soon as we do any penances,
            our confessors begin to fear
         that we shall kill ourselves with them. 

We are so horrified at our own possible excesses
    --if only we were as conscientious 
          about everything else! 

Those who tend to the opposite extreme will I know, 
    not mind my saying this, 
nor shall I mind if they say I am judging others 
    by myself, 
for they will be quite right. 

I believe--indeed, I am sure
   --that more nuns are 
             of my way of thinking 
      than are offended by me
             because they do just the opposite. 

My own belief is 
   that it is for this reason 
that the Lord is pleased to make us 
      such weakly creatures; 

at least He has shown me great mercy
    in making me so; 
for, as I was sure to be self-indulgent in any case, 
    He was pleased to provide me 
      with an excuse for this. 

It is really amusing to see 
   how some people torture themselves about it, 
when the real reason lies in themselves; 

    sometimes they get a desire to do penances, 
        as one might say, without rhyme or reason; 
    they go on doing them for a couple of days;

    and then the devil puts it into their heads 
       that they have been doing themselves harm and
    so he makes them afraid of penances, 
        after which they dare not do even those 
             that the Order requires
             --they have tried them once! 

They do not keep the smallest points in the Rule, 
      such as silence, 
which is quite incapable of harming us. 

Hardly have we begun to imagine 
   that our heads are aching 
than we stay away from choir, 
   though that would not kill us either. 

One day we are absent 
    because we had a headache some time ago;
another day, 
    because our head has just been aching again; 
and on the next three days
    in case it should ache once more. 

Then we want to invent penances of our own, 
   with the result 
that we do 
     neither the one thing 
     nor the other. 

Sometimes there is very little the matter with us,
   yet we think that it should dispense us 
        from all our obligations and
   that if we ask to be excused from them 
        we are doing all we need.

But why, you will say, does the Prioress excuse us? 

Perhaps she would not 
   if she knew what was going on inside us; 

but she sees one of you wailing about a mere nothing 
   as if your heart were breaking, 
and you come and ask her to excuse you 
   from keeping the whole of your Rule,
 saying it is a matter of great necessity, and, 
when there is any substance in what you say, 
    there is always 
      a physician at hand to confirm it or 
      some friend or relative weeping at your side. 

Sometimes the poor Prioress 
    sees that your request is excessive, 
       but what can she do? 

   She feels a scruple 
       if she thinks she has been lacking in charity and 
   she would rather the fault were yours than hers: 

   she thinks, too,
      that it would be unjust of her to judge you harshly.

Oh, God help me! 
That there should be complaining 
    like this among nuns!

May He forgive me for saying so, 
   but I am afraid it has become quite a habit. 

I happened to observe this incident once myself: 
   a nun began complaining about her headaches and
        she went on complaining to me for a long time. 
In the end I made enquiries and found 
   she had no headache whatever, 
but was suffering from some pain or other elsewhere.

These are things which may sometimes happen 
   and I put them down here 
so that you may guard against them; 

for if once the devil begins to frighten us
    about losing our health, 
we shall never get anywhere. 

The Lord give us light 
   so that we may act rightly in everything! 
Amen.
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                          Foot Notes:


[33] The sense of this passage, 
especially without the phrase from E. 
  which V. omits, 
is not very clear. 

T. remodels thus: "
You know there is no worse thief 
    for the perfection of the soul 
than the love of ourselves, for unless etc."
[34] Here, in the margin, is written: 
"Humility and mortification, very great virtues."
[35] Lit.: "to contrive not to die." 
But the reading of E. 
  ("to think that we came to the convent 
for no other reason 
     than to serve our bodies and look after them") 
suggests that this is what is meant.





  ~ End of Chapter 10   ~