Thursday, February 10, 2011

Way of Perfection - Chapter 13 - St. Teresa of Avila - Teresa of jesus







           CHAPTER 13

    The Way of Perfection 

  - Continues to treat of mortification and 
  - Explains how one must renounce 
         the world's standards of wisdom 
     in order to attain to true wisdom.



I often tell you, sisters, 
and now I want it to be set down in writing,
     not to forget 
           that we in this house, 
                   and for that matter 
                   anyone who would be perfect, 
           must flee a thousand leagues 
                   from such phrases as: 
         "I had right on my side"; 
         "They had no right to do this to me"; 
         "The person who treated me like this 
              was not right". 
God deliver us 
     from such a false idea of right as that! 

Do you think 
   - that it was right for our good Jesus 
            to have to suffer so many insults, and
    - that those who heaped them on Him [40] 
           were right, and 
    - that they had any right 
            to do Him those wrongs? 

I do not know 
 why anyone is in a convent 
     who is willing to bear 
        only the crosses 
    that she has a perfect right to expect
     such a person 
        should return to the world, 
     though even there 
        such rights will not be safeguarded. 

Do you think you can ever possibly
     have to bear so much 
  that you ought not 
     to have to bear any more? 

How does right enter into the matter at all? 
    I really do not know.

Before we begin talking about 
     not having our rights, 
  let us wait until we receive 
     some honour or gratification, 
     or are treated kindly, 
     for it is certainly not right 
        that we should have anything 
     in this life 
        like that. 

When, on the other hand, 
    some offence is done to us 
          (and we do not feel it an offence to us 
            that it should be so described), 
    I do not see 
           what we can find to complain of. 

Either we are the brides 
         of this great King 
or we are not. 

If we are, 
   what wife is there 
        with a sense of honour 
    who does not accept her share 
        in any dishonour done to her spouse, 
   even though she may do so 
        against her will? 
Each partner, in fact, 
   shares in the honour and dishonour 
         of the other. 

To desire to share in the kingdom 
     [of our Spouse Jesus Christ], and 
to enjoy it, and
   yet not to be willing to have any part 
         in His dishonours and trials, 
   is ridiculous.
God keep us from being like that! 

Let the sister 
   who thinks that she is accounted 
           the least among all 
    consider herself 
           the [happiest and] most fortunate
                   as indeed she really is,
             if she lives her life as she should, 
                   for in that case she will, as a rule, 
             have no lack of honour
                   either in this life 
                   or in the next. 

Believe me when I say this-
       - what an absurdity, though, it is 
               for me to say, "Believe me" 
          when the words come 
               from Him   
                  Who is true Wisdom, 
                  Who is Truth Itself, and 
               from the Queen of the angels! 


Let us, my daughters, in some small degree, 
   imitate the great humility 
        of the most sacred Virgin, 
    whose habit we wear and 
    whose nuns we are ashamed 
         to call ourselves. 

Let us at least imitate this humility of hers 
     in some degree-

   -I say "in some degree" 
     because, however much 
           we may seem to humble ourselves, 
           we fall far short of being
                  the daughters 
                       of such a Mother, and 
                  the brides 
                       of such a Spouse.

If, then, the habits I have described 
   are not sternly checked, 
what seems nothing to-day 
  will perhaps be a venial sin to-morrow, 

and that is so infectious a tendency
   that, if you leave it alone, 
the sin will not be the only one for long; 
and that is a very bad thing for communities.

We who live in a community 
   should consider this very carefully, 
so as not to harm those 
   who labour 
         to benefit us and 
         to set us a good example. 

If we realize 
      what great harm is done 
  by the formation of a bad habit 
     of over-punctiliousness 
           about our honour
we should rather die a thousand deaths 
   than be the cause of such a thing. 

For only the body would die, 
  whereas the loss of a soul is a great loss 
which is apparently without end; 

some of us will die, 
but others will take our places and 
   perhaps they may all be harmed 
     more by the one bad habit
             which we started 
     than they are benefited by many virtues. 

For the devil 
     does not allow a single bad habit 
           to disappear and 
the very weakness of  our mortal nature 
     destroys the virtues in us.

Oh, what a real charity
                  it would be, and 
       what a service would be
                  rendered to God, 
       if any nun who sees 
            that she cannot 
                    [endure and]
                     conform to the customs 
                     of this house 
         would recognize the fact and
         go away 
                  [before being professed, 
                   as I have said elsewhere], and
         leave the other sisters in peace! 

And no convent
          (at least, if it follows my advice) 
     will take her or 
     allow her to make her profession 
           until they have given her 
           many years' probation 
     to see if she improves. 

I am not referring to shortcomings 
    affecting penances and fasts, 
for, although these are wrong, 
    they are not things 
        which do so much harm. 

I am thinking of nuns 
   - who are of such a temperament 
        that they like to be esteemed 
             and made much of; 
   - who see the faults of others 
        but never recognize their own; and 
   - who are deficient in other ways like these,
        the true source of which is 
            want of humility

If God does not help such a person 
    by bestowing great spirituality upon her,  
          until after many years 
          she becomes greatly improved, 
    may God preserve you 
         from keeping her in your community. 

For you must realize 
   that she will 
       neither have peace there herself 
       nor allow you to have any.

As you do not take dowries, 
   God is very gracious to you 
        in this respect. 

It grieves me 
    that religious houses should 
        often harbour one
   who 
      is a thief and 
      robs them of their treasure, 
   either because they are 
           unwilling to return a dowry 
   or out of regard for the relatives. 

In this house 
    you have 
         risked losing worldly honour and 
         forgone it 
            (for no such honour is paid
              to those who are poor); 
   do not desire, then, 
     that others should be honoured 
          at such a cost to yourselves. 

Our honour, sisters, must lie 
    in the service of God, and, 
if anyone thinks to hinder you in this, 
   she had better 
         keep her honour and 
         stay at home. 

It was with this in mind 
   that our Fathers ordered 
         a year's probation 
        (which in our Order
          we are free to extend 
              to four years):

personally, I should like it 
    to be prolonged to ten years. 

A humble nun will mind very little 
   if she is not professed: 
for she knows 
   that
      if she is good 
          she will not be sent away, and
      if she is not, 
          why should she wish 
               to do harm to one 
               of Christ's communities? [41]

By not being good, 
  I do not mean 
         being fond of vanities, 
         which, I believe, 
            with the help of God, 
         will be a fault far removed 
            from the nuns in this house. 

  I am referring to 
       a want of mortification and 
       an attachment 
           to worldly things and 
           to self-interest 
     in the matter which I have described. 

Let anyone who knows 
  that she is not greatly mortified
       take my advice and 
       not make her profession 
   if she does not wish 
         to suffer a hell on earth, 
and God grant 
     there may not be another hell
awaiting such a nun in the world to come! 

There are many reasons 
 why she should fear there may be  and      
    possibly 
        neither she 
        nor her sisters
    may realize this as well as I do.

Believe what I say here; 

       if you will not, 
   I must leave it to time 
       to prove the truth of my words. 
For the whole manner of life 
  we are trying to live 
is making us, 
        not only nuns, 
        but hermits 
             [like the holy Fathers
               our predecessors] and
   leading us to detachment 
        from all things created.

I have observed 
   that anyone whom the Lord  
     has specially chosen for this life 
             is granted that favour. 

She may not have it in full perfection,
  but that she has it 
     will be evident 
  from the great joy and gladness
      that such detachment gives her, and 
she will never have any more to do
      with worldly things, 
for her delight will be 
      in all the practices of the religious life. 

I say once more 
  that anyone 
who is inclined 
        to things of the world 
  should leave the convent [42] 
        if she sees 
           she is not making progress. 
        If she still wishes to be a nun 
           she should go to another convent; 
        if she does not, 
           she will see what happens to her. 
  She must not 
     complain of me 
       as the foundress of this convent and
     say I have not warned her.

This house is another Heaven, 
  if it be possible 
      to have Heaven upon earth. 

Anyone 
     whose sole pleasure 
         lies in pleasing God and 
     who cares nothing 
         for her own pleasure 
  will find our life a very good one; 

if she wants anything more, 
   she will lose everything, 
for there is nothing more 
    that she can have. 

A discontented soul 
     is like a person suffering
          from severe nausea, 
   who rejects all food, 
      however nice it may be;
    things which persons in good health
      delight in eating 
    only cause her the greater loathing. 

Such a person will save her soul 
    better elsewhere than here; 

she may even gradually reach 
   a degree of perfection 
  which she could not 
      have attained here 
because we expected too much of her
      all at once. 

For although we allow time 
  for the attainment 
       of complete detachment and 
           mortification 
              in interior matters, 
  in externals
      this has to be practised immediately, 
  because of the harm 
       which may otherwise
             befall the rest; 

and anyone who 
     sees this being done, and 
     spends all her time 
        in such good company, and 
yet, at the end 
        of six months or a year, 
               has made no progress, 
    will, I fear, 
        make none 
               over a great many years, and 
    will even go backward. 

I do not say 
  that such a nun must be
       as perfect as the rest, 
  but she must be sure 
    that her soul is 
          gradually growing healthier--
    and it will soon become clear 
       if her disease is mortal.
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             Foot Notes:


 [40] Lit.: "did them to Him."
 [41]  Lit.: "to this college of Christ."   
 [42]  i.e., St. Joseph's, Avila.





     End of Chapter 13 


 The Way of Perfection