Monday, May 9, 2011

The Way of Perfection - Chapter 34 - St. Teresa of Avila - Teresa of Jesus

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              CHAPTER 34
      The Way of Perfection

 - Continues the same subject. 
   This is very suitable for reading 
      after the reception 

    of the Most Holy Sacrament.               
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                  John 6


32 ...my Father gives you 
           the true bread from heaven.

33 For the bread of God is that 
           which comes down from heaven  
           and gives life to the world."

34 So they said to him, 
           "Sir, give us this bread always."

35 Jesus said to them, 
      "I am the bread of life
      whoever comes to me 
           will never hunger, 
       and whoever believes in me 

           will never thirst.   
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           CHAPTER 34
   
We have now reached the conclusion 
  that the good Jesus, 
         being ours,
   asks His Father 
         to let us have Him daily--
   which appears to mean "for ever". 
While writing this 
    I have been wondering 
why,  after saying "our 'daily' bread", 
    the Lord repeated the idea in the words 
"Give us this day, Lord." 
I will tell you my own foolish idea:

         if it really is foolish, 
            well and good--
in any case, 
   it is quite bad enough 
that I should interfere 
   in such a matter at all. 
Still, as we are trying to understand 
   what we are praying for
let us think carefully 
   what this means, 
so that we may 
         pray rightly, and 
         thank Him 
    Who is taking such care about teaching us.
This bread, then, 
     is ours daily
it seems to me, 
     because we have Him here on earth
since He has remained with us here 
            and 
     we receive Him
            and, 
if we profit by His company, 
    we shall also have Him in Heaven, 

for the only reason He remains with us 
    is to help and encourage and sustain us 
so that we shall do that will
    which, as we have said, 
 is to be fulfilled in us.
In using the words "this day
   He seems to me 
to be thinking of a day 
   of the length of this life
And a day indeed it is! 

As for the unfortunate souls 
   who 
        will bring damnation upon themselves
                  and 
        will not have fruition of Him 
                  in the world to come,
    they are His own creatures, 
                  and
    He did everything to help them on, 
                  and 
    was with them, to strengthen them, 
        throughout the "to-day" of this life
so it is not His fault if they are vanquished. 
     They will have no excuse to make 
      nor will they be able to complain 
         of the Father 
     for taking this bread from them 
         at the time when they most needed it. 

Therefore the Son prays the Father 
 that, since this life 
         lasts no more than a day, 
 He will allow Him to spend it 
         in our service.   [120] 
As His Majesty has already 
        given His Son to us,
              by sending Him, 
        of His will alone, 
              into the world, 
so now, 
        of that same will, 
              He is pleased not to abandon us, 
        but to remain here with us 
               for 
                     the greater glory of His friends 
                            and 
                     the discomfiture of His enemies.
He prays for nothing more 
       than this "to-day
since He has given us 
       this most holy Bread
He has given it to us for ever
        as I have said, 
as the sustenance and manna of humanity
We can have it 
        whenever we please and
we shall not die of hunger 
        save through our own fault, 
for, in whatever way the soul desires 
         to partake of food, 
it will find joy and comfort
         in the Most Holy Sacrament. 
There is no need or trial or persecution
         that cannot be easily borne
 if we begin 
          - to partake and taste of those
               which He Himself bore, 
                        and 
          - to make them the subject 
               of our meditations.

With regard to other bread [121] --
     the bread of bodily 
          necessaries and sustenance--
I neither like to think 
        that the Lord is always
               being reminded of it 
   nor would I have you 
               remember it yourselves. 
Keep on the level 
    of the highest contemplation
for anyone who dwells there 
    no more remembers
               that he is in the world
    than if he had already left it--
    still less does he think about food. 

Would the Lord ever have 
    insisted  upon our asking for food,  
         or 
    taught us to do so by His own example? 
Not in my opinion. 

He teaches us 
    to fix our desires upon heavenly things 
         and
    to pray that we may begin 
         to enjoy these things while here on earth:
Would He, then, have us trouble 
    about so petty a matter 
as praying for food? 

As if He did not know 
that, once we begin to worry 
     about the needs of the body, 
we shall forget the needs of the soul
Besides, 
    are we such moderately minded people 
that we shall be satisfied 
    with just a little 
            and 
    pray only for a little? 
No: 
The more food we are given, 
the less we shall get 
    of the water from Heaven

Let those of you, daughters, 
   who want more 
          of the necessaries of life 
    pray for this.
Join with the Lord, then, daughters, 
    in begging the Father 
to let you have your Spouse to-day, 
    so that, as long as you live, 
you may never find yourself 
    in this world 
without Him. 

Let it suffice to temper your great joy 
    that He should remain disguised 
beneath these accidents 
    of  bread and wine, 
which is a real torture to those 
    who have
          nothing else to love 
               and 
          no other consolation. 

Entreat Him 
    not to fail you 
    but to prepare you to receive Him worthily.
As for that other bread, 
    have no anxiety about it 
if you have truly resigned yourselves 
    to God's will. 
I mean 
    that at these hours of prayer
you are dealing 
    with more important matters 
             and
there is time enough for you 
     to labour and earn your daily bread. 
Try never at any time 
     to let your thoughts dwell on this; 
             work with your body, 
    for it is good for you 
             to try to support yourselves,
but let your soul be at rest.
Leave anxiety about this to your Spouse, 
    as has been said at length already, 
              and 
He will always bear it for you. 

Do not fear 
     that He will fail you 
if you do not fail 
     to do what you have promised 
              and 
     to resign yourselves to God's will. 

I assure you, daughters,
     that, if I myself  were to fail in this, 
because of my wickedness, 
     as I have often done in the past,
I would not beg Him to give me 
      that bread, or anything else to eat. 
Let Him leave me to die of hunger. 
Of what use is life to me 
      if it leads me daily 
 nearer to eternal death?
If, then, you are really 
      surrendering yourselves to God, 
as you say,
      cease to be anxious for yourselves, 
for He 
      bears your anxiety, 
             and 
      will bear it always. 

It is as though a servant 
       had gone into service 
               and
      were anxious to please his master 
               in everything. 
The master is bound 
      to give him food 
for so long as he remains 
      in his house, and 
      in his service, 
unless he is so poor 
      that he has food 
            neither for his servant
            nor for himself. 
Here, however,
     the comparison breaks down, 
for God is, and will always be, 
     rich and powerful. 
It would not be right 
    for the servant to 
           go to his master every day and 
           ask him for food 
when he knew 
    that his master would see 
    that it was given him and 
so he would be sure to receive it. 
To do this would be a waste of words. 
His master would quite properly tell him
    that he should look after his own business 
         of serving and pleasing him, 
for, if he worried himself unnecessarily, 
    he would not do his work 
         as well as he should. 

So, sisters, those who will
   may worry about asking for earthly bread; 

let our own task be 
   to beg the Eternal Father 
that we may merit our heavenly bread, 
   so that, 
although our bodily eyes 
      cannot feast themselves 
            on the sight of Him
      since He is thus hidden from us, 
He 
  may reveal Himself
      to the eyes of the soul 
            and 
  may make Himself known to us 
     as another kind of food, 
           full of delight and joy, 
     which sustains our life.
Do you suppose 
  that this most holy food 
is not 
  ample sustenance even for the body 
          and 
  a potent medicine for bodily ills? 
I am sure that it is. 
I know a person who was 
   subject to serious illnesses and 
   often suffered great pain; 
   and this pain was taken away from her 
       in a flash [122] 
   and she became quite well again. 
This often occurs, I believe;
and cures are recorded 
      from quite definite illnesses 
which could not be counterfeited. 
As the wondrous effects 
      produced by this most holy bread
            in those who worthily receive it 
      are very well known, 
  I will not describe all the things 
      that could be related about this person
            I mentioned, 
though I have been enabled 
      to learn about them 
and I know 
      that they are not fabrications. 

 The Lord had given this person 
         such a lively faith 
that, when she heard people say 
         they wished they had lived
when Christ walked on this earth, 
         she would smile to herself, 
              for she knew
         that we have Him as truly with us 
              in the Most Holy Sacrament 
         as people had Him then
              and wonder what more 
         they could possibly want.
I know, too, 
    that for many years this person, 
though by no means perfect, 
    always tried to strengthen her faith
when she communicated,
    by thinking that it was exactly 
as if she saw the Lord 
   entering her house
with her own bodily eyes, 
    for she believed in very truth 
      that this Lord was entering 
              her poor abode
     and she ceased, 
              as far as she could, 
         to think of outward things, 
       and went into her abode with Him.
She tried to recollect her senses 
  so that they might all become aware
        of this great blessing, 
                    or rather, 
  so that they should not hinder the soul 
       from becoming conscious of it. 
She imagined herself at His feet
                and 
       wept with the Magdalen 
exactly as if she had seen Him 
       with her bodily eyes 
               in the Pharisee's house. 

Even if she felt no devotion,
faith told her 
   that it was good for her to be there.

For, unless we want 
   to be foolish and 
   to close our minds to facts, 
we cannot suppose 
   that this is the work of the imagination, 
as it is 
   when we think 
           of the Lord on the Cross, 
                             or 
           of other incidents of the Passion, 
    and picture within ourselves 
           how these things happened. 

This is something 
    which is happening now
it is absolutely true; 
and we have no need 
     to go and seek Him somewhere 
a long way off

For we know that,
until the accidents of bread 
    have been consumed by our natural heat,
the good Jesus is with us 
    and we should [not lose 
          so good an opportunity 
    but should] come to Him. 

If, while He went about in the world, 
    the sick were healed 
          merely by touching His clothes, 
how can we doubt 
    that He will work miracles 
         when He is within us, 
                if we have faith, 
                      or
   that He will give us 
         what we ask of Him 
   since He is in our house
His Majesty is not wont to offer us 
      too little payment for His lodging 
if we treat Him well.

If you grieve at not seeing Him 
      with the eyes of the body, 
remember that
      that would not be good for us, 
for it is 
      one thing to see Him glorified 
                  and 
      quite another to see Him 
                  as He was 
      when He lived in the world. 
So weak is our nature 
     that nobody could endure the sight--
in fact, 
there would be no one left to endure it, 
     for no one would wish to remain 
in the world any longer. 

Once having seen this Eternal Truth,
     people would realize 
that all the things we prize here 
     are mockery and falsehood

And if such great Majesty 
     could be seen, 
how could a miserable sinner like myself, 
     after having so greatly offended Him,
remain so near to Him? 
Beneath those accidents of bread, 
     we can  approach Him; 
for, if the King disguises Himself, 
     it would seem 
that we need not mind coming to Him 
     without so much 
circumspection and ceremony: 
By disguising Himself, 
     He has, as it were, 
obliged Himself to submit to this. 
Who, otherwise, would dare 
     to approach Him so unworthily, 
        with so many imperfections 
                      and 
        with such lukewarm zeal?

Oh, we know not what we ask! 
How much better 
   does His Wisdom 
know what we need

He reveals Himself to those 
    who He knows will profit by His presence; 
Though unseen by bodily eyes, 
   He has many ways 
of revealing Himself to the soul 
   through deep inward emotions 
          and 
   by various other means. 

Delight to remain with Him

Do not lose such an excellent time
    for talking with Him 
as the hour after Communion
Remember that 
    this is a very profitable hour for the soul
If you spend it 
   in the company of  the good Jesus, 
you are doing Him a great service
Be very careful, then, daughters, 
   not to lose it

If you are compelled by obedience
   to do something else, 
try to leave your soul with the Lord
For He is your Master, 
   and, 
Though it be in a way 
    you may not understand, 
He will not fail to teach you

But if you 
    take your thoughts elsewhere, 
            and 
    pay no more attention to Him 
            than if you had not received Him, 
            and 
    care nothing for His being within you, 
how can He make Himself known to you?
You must complain, 
    not of Him, 
    but of yourself. 
This, then, is a good time 
    for our Master to teach us 
              and 
    for us to listen to Him

I do not tell you 
    to say no prayers at all, 
    for if I did,
      you would 
              take hold of  my words 
                     and 
            say I was talking about contemplation, 
       which you need practise only 
            if the Lord brings you to it. 
No: 

You should say the Paternoster, 
• realize 
     that you are verily and indeed 
        in the company of Him 
     Who taught it you 
          and 
• kiss His feet in gratitude to Him 
     for having desired to teach you 
          and 
• beg Him 
      to show you how to pray 
               and 
      never to leave you.

You may be in the habit of praying 
    while looking at a picture of  Christ, 
 but at a time like this 
    it seems foolish to me 
      - to turn away from the living image
               --the Person Himself--
       - to look at His picture.

Would it not be foolish 
    if we had a portrait of someone 
          whom we dearly loved 
                      and, 
    when the person himself came to see us, 
          we refused to talk with him 
          and carried on our entire conversation
                     with the portrait? 

Do you know 
   when I find the use of a picture 
         an excellent thing, 
   and take great pleasure in it? 
         When the person is absent 
                   and 
          we are made to feel his loss 
                   by our great aridity, 
          it is then 
          that we find it a great comfort 
                   to look at the picture of Him 
         Whom we have such reason to love.
This is a great inspiration, 
    and makes us wish 
that, in whichever direction we turn our eyes, 
    we could see the picture. 
What can we look upon 
    that is better or more attractive 
         to the sight 
    than upon Him 
  Who 
    so dearly loves us 
            and 
    contains within Himself 
            all good things? 
Unhappy are those heretics, 
    who through their own fault 
  have lost this comfort,
     as well as others.

When you 
     have received the Lord
             and 
     are in His very presence
  try 
     • to shut the bodily eyes 
             and 
     • to open the eyes of the soul 
             and 
     • to look into your own hearts

I tell you, and tell you again, 
     for I should like to repeat it often, 
that if you 
     • practise this habit
           of staying with Him,
               not just once or twice, 
               but whenever you communicate, 
           and 
    • strive to keep your conscience clear 
 so that you can often rejoice 
      in this your Good, 
He will not, 
       as I have said, 
    come so much disguised 
       as to be unable 
            to make His presence known to you 
       in many ways, 
            according to the desire 
       which you have of seeing Him. 
So great, indeed, may be 
       your longing for Him 
that He will reveal Himself to you wholly.

But if we 
      pay no heed to Him 
           save when we have received Him, 
                     and 
      go away from Him 
           in search of other and baser things, 
   what can He do? 
   Will He have to drag us by force to
         look at Him 
              and 
         be with Him 
      because He desires 
         to reveal Himself to us?
     No; 
     For when He 
         revealed Himself to all men plainly, 
              and 
        told them clearly who He was, 
     they did not treat Him at all well
      --very few of them, indeed, 
         even believed Him. 

So He grants us 
     an exceeding great favour 
when He is pleased to show us 
     that it is He 
Who is in the Most Holy Sacrament. 
But He will not 
     reveal Himself openly 
           and 
     communicate His glories 
           and 
     bestow His treasures
  save on those whom He knows 
     greatly desire Him, 
  for these are His true friends. 

I assure you 
     that anyone who 
          - is not a true friend 
                      and 
          - does not come to receive Him as such, 
                after doing all in his power 
                to prepare for Him
    must never importune Him 
         to reveal Himself to him. 
Hardly is the hour over 
   which such a person has spent 
in fulfilling the Church's commandment 
    than he goes home 
and tries to drive Christ out of the house. 
What with all his other business 
     and occupations and worldly hindrances,
he seems to be making all possible haste 
     to prevent the Lord 
from taking possession of the house 
     which is His own.
       _____________


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            Foot Notes
 [120] Lit.: "in service"--en servidumbre,   
             a strong word, better rendered, 
             perhaps, "servitude," and 
             not far removed from "slavery."
 [121]  The whole of this paragraph
             is lightly crossed out
             in the manuscript.
 [122] Lit.: "as if by (someone's) hand." 
             St. Teresa is thought here to 

             be referring to herself.                 
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       End of Chapter 34
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