Sunday, May 29, 2011

The Way of Perfection - Chapter 42 - St. Teresa of Avila - Teresa of Jesus

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                    CHAPTER 42

           The Way of Perfection

   - Treats of these last words 
        of the Paternoster:
     "Sed libera nos a malo.        Amen."      
  
     "But deliver us from evil.   Amen."

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I think the good Jesus was right 
   to ask this for Himself
for we know 
   how weary of this life He was 
when at the Supper He said to His Apostles: 
    "With desire I have desired 
            to sup with you" [141]
      --and that was 
            the last supper of His life. 
From this it can be seen 
     how weary He must have been of living; 
yet nowadays people are not weary 
     even at a hundred years old, 
but always want to live longer. 
It is true, however,
    that we do not 
        live so difficult a life 
                or 
        suffer such trials or such poverty 
    as His Majesty had to bear. 
What was His whole life 
    but a continuous death, 
  with the picture of the cruel death 
    that He was to suffer 
  always before His eyes? 
And this was the least important thing,
  with 
    so many offenses being committed  
          against His Father 
                  and 
    such a multitude of souls being lost. 
If to any human being full of charity
    this is a great torment, 
what must it have been 
    to the boundless and measureless charity 
 of the Lord? 
And how right He was 
    to beseech the Father 
       to deliver Him 
              from so many evils and trials and  
       to give Him rest forever 
               in His Kingdom,
               of which He was the true heir.
By the word "Amen," 
    as it comes at the end of every prayer, 
I understand 
    that the Lord is begging 
    that we may be delivered 
            from all evil for ever
It is useless, sisters, 
    for us to think 
 that, for so long as we live, 
    we can be free 
from numerous temptations 
    and imperfections 
    and even sins;   
for it is said 
that whosoever thinks himself 
   to be without sin, 
deceives himself, 
and that is true. 
But if we try to banish bodily ills and trials
         --  and who is without very many 
              and various trials of such kinds?  --
    is it not right that we should ask 
         to be delivered from sin?
Still, let us realize 
    that what we are asking here
        --this deliverance from all evil--
    seems an impossibility, 
        whether we are thinking 
           of bodily ills, 
                  as I have said, 
                  or 
           of imperfections and faults 
                 in God's service. 
I am referring, 
    not to the saints, 
        who, as Saint Paul said,
        can do all things in Christ [142] 
   but to sinners like myself. 
When I find myself trammelled 
    by weakness, lukewarmness, 
          lack of mortification
          and many other things, 
I realize 
    that I must beg for help 
       from the Lord.
You, daughters, must ask 
   as you think best. 
Personally, I shall find 
    no redress in this life,
so I ask the Lord 
   to deliver me from all evil 'for ever.'
What good thing shall we find 
    in this life, sisters, 
    in which we 
           are deprived of our great Good 
                     and 
           are absent from Him?
Deliver me, Lord, 
     from this shadow of death; 
deliver me 
      from all these trials; 
deliver me 
       from all these pains; 
deliver me
      from all these changes, 
      from all the formalities 
             with which we are forced to comply
             for as long as we live, 
      from all the many, many, many things 
             which weary and depress me, 
                    and the enumeration of all  
             of which would weary the reader 
                    if I were to repeat them. 
This life is unendurable. 
The source of my own depression 
    must be 
      - my own wicked life 
             and 
      - the realization that even now 
            I am not living as I should, 
        so great are my obligations.
I beseech the Lord, then, 
      to deliver me from all evil for ever
since I 
     - cannot pay what I owe, 
           and
     - may perhaps run farther into debt each day.
And the hardest thing to bear, Lord, 
    is that I cannot know with any certainty 
         - if I love Thee 
               and 
         - if my desires are acceptable 
               in Thy sight.

O my God and Lord, 
    deliver me from all evil 
          and 
    be pleased to lead me to that place 
         where all good things are to be found. 

What can be looked for on earth by 
   - those to whom Thou hast given 
          some knowledge 
          of what the world is 
                and 
  -  those who have a living faith 
          in what the Eternal Father 
            has laid up for them 
  because His Son 
         asks it of Him 
               and 
         teaches us to ask Him for it too?
When contemplatives ask for this 
    with fervent desire and full determination 
it is a very clear sign 
   -  that their contemplation is genuine 
         and 
   -  that the favours 
         which they receive in prayer
       are from God.
Let those 
      who have these favours, [143] then, 
   prize them highly. 
But if I myself make this request
   - it is not for that reason
       (I mean, it must not be taken 
       as being for that reason); 
   - it is 
      because I am wearied 
         by so many trials 
            and 
     because my life has been so wicked 
        that I am afraid of living any longer. 
It is not surprising 
       if those 
who share in the favours of God 
      should wish to pass to a life 
where they no longer enjoy 
      mere sips at them: 
      being already partakers 
          in some knowledge
          of His greatness, 
      they would fain see it in its entirety. 
      They have no desire to remain 
         where there are so many hindrances
       to the enjoyment of so many blessings; 
       nor that they should desire to be 
          where the Sun of justice never sets. 
Henceforward all the things 
      they see on earth 
  seem dim to them 
     and 
I wonder that they can live 
  for even an hour. 
No one can be content to do so 
   who 
       - has begun to enjoy such things, 
           and 
      - has been given the Kingdom of God 
           on earth, 
           and 
      - must live to do, 
           not his own will, 
         but the will of the King.
Oh, far other must be that life 
      in which we no longer desire death! 
How differently shall we then 
      incline our wills 
      towards the will of God!
His will is for us 
      to desire truth
whereas we desire falsehood; 
His will is for us 
      to desire the eternal, 
whereas we prefer that which passes away; 
His will is for us 
      to desire great and sublime things,
whereas we desire the base things of earth; 
He would have us desire
      only what is certain, 
whereas here on earth 
     we love what is doubtful.

What a mockery it all is, my daughters, 
       unless we beseech God 
  to deliver us from these perils for ever 
          and 
  to keep us from all evil
And although our desire for this 
   may not be perfect, 
let us strive to make the petition
What does it cost us to ask it, 
   since we ask it of One
Who is so powerful? 
It would be insulting a great emperor
   to ask him for a farthing.
Since we have already given Him our will
    let us leave the giving 
          to His will
so that 
    we may be 
          the more surely heard; 
                 and
    may His name be for ever hallowed 
          in the Heavens and on the earth 
                 and
    may His will be ever done in me. Amen.
You see now, friends, 
   what is meant by perfection in vocal prayer, 
      in which we consider and know 
        • To Whom the prayer is being made, 
        • Who is making it 
                 and 
        • What is its object. 

When you are told
   that it is not good for you
   to practise any but vocal prayer, 
   • do not be discouraged, 
   • but read this with great care 
         and 
   • beg God to explain to you anything 
        about prayer 
     which you cannot understand. 
For no one 
     can deprive you of vocal prayer 
         or 
     make you say the Paternoster hurriedly, 
        without understanding it. 
If anyone 
     tries to do so, 
         or 
     advises you to give up your prayer,
  take no notice of him. 
You may be sure he is a false prophet; 
and in these days, remember, 
   you must not believe everyone, 
for, though you may be told now 
   that you have nothing to fear, 
you do not know 
   what is in store for you. 
I had intended, 
      as well as saying this, 
  to talk to you a little about 
      how you should say the Ave Maria, 
but I have written at such length 
  that that will have to be left over. 
If you have learned
  how to say the Paternoster well, 
you will know enough 
  to enable you to say 
all the other vocal prayers 
   you may have to recite.
Now let us go back 
  and finish the journey 
which I have been describing,
  for the Lord seems to have 
     been saving me labour 
  - by teaching both you and me the Way 
       which I began to outline to you 
             and 
  - by showing me how much we ask for 
      when we repeat this evangelical prayer. 
May He be for ever blessed, 
   for it had certainly never entered my mind 
that there were such great secrets in it
You have now seen 
  that it comprises the whole spiritual road
    - right from the beginning
    - until God 
          -- absorbs the soul 
                and
          -- gives it to drink abundantly 
                of the fountain of living water
              which I told you 
                was at the end of the road.
It seems, sisters, 
that the Lord's will has been to teach us 
   what great consolation is comprised in it, 
       and 
   this is a great advantage to those 
       who cannot read. 
   If they understood this prayer
       they 
        - could derive a great deal 
              of sound instruction from it 
              and 
        - would find it a real comfort. 
Our books may be taken from us, 
   but this is a book 
 which no one can take away,
   and 
it comes from the lips of the Truth Himself
   Who cannot err.
As we repeat the Paternoster 
    so many times daily,
 then, as I have said,
    • let us delight in it and
    • strive to learn 
            from so excellent a Master 
       the humility with which He prays, 
            and 
       all the other things 
            that have been described. 
May His Majesty forgive me 
   for having dared 
  to speak of such high matters. 
Well does His Majesty know 
   - that I should not have ventured to do so, 
        and
   - that my understanding 
        would not have been capable of it, 
      had He not taught me what I have said
Give thanks to Him for this, sisters, 
    for He must have done it 
because of the humility with which 
    you asked me to write it for you 
 in your desire to be instructed 
    by one so unworthy.
Well, sisters, 
   Our Lord seems not to want me 
       to write any more, 
   for, although I had intended to go on, 
       I can think of nothing to say. 
The Lord
  - has shown you the road 
         and 
  - has taught me 
        what I wrote in the book
    which, as I say, 
        I have already written. [144] 
This tells you 
   - how to conduct yourselves on reaching 
          this fount of living water 
              and 
   - what the soul experiences when there, 
              and 
   - how God 
          - satiates it and 
          - takes away its thirst for earthly things,
              and 
          - makes it grow in things pertaining 
              to God's service. 
This 
   - will be very helpful to those 
          who have reached the fount, 
           and 
  - will give them a great deal of light.

Before you see this book 
   I shall give it to my confessor, 
Father Presentado Domingo Banez 
   of the Order of Saint Dominic. 
If he 
   - thinks you will benefit by it
        and 
   - gives it you to read, 
        and 
if you find it of any comfort, 
      I, too, shall be comforted. 
If he gives you this book, 
   he will give you the other [145] as well. 
Should it be found unsuitable 
   for anyone to read, 
you must take the will for the deed, 
   as I have obeyed your command 
by writing it. [146]
I consider myself well repaid
   for my labour in writing, 
   though it has certainly 
        been no labour to me
   to think about 
        what I have been going to say,
   as the Lord has taught me 
        the secrets of this evangelical prayer
   which has been a great comfort to me. 
Blessed and praised be the Lord, 
   from Whom comes all the good
that we speak and think and do. 
Amen.
     ____________________


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                      Foot Notes
 [141] St. Luke xxii, 15.
 [142] Philippians iv, 13.
 [143] Lit.: "Let those who are so."
 [144] The Life.
 [145] The Life. 
             I do not know what reason St. Teresa
                had to suppose this, 
             but the Spanish of E.
                ("tambien es da el otro")
             is quite definite.
 [146] Lit.: "you will take my will, 
             as I have obeyed your command 
             with the work" [i.e. in deed].

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      End of Chapter 42
    The Way of Perfection    
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  Gospel Excerpts:

          Gospel according to Luke


 22:10 And he said to them: 
             Behold, as you go into the city, 
               there shall meet you a man 
             carrying a pitcher of water: 
               follow him into the house 
             where he entereth in.
 22:11 And you shall say to the goodman 
              of the house: 
            The master saith to thee, 
              Where is the guest chamber, 
            where I may eat the pasch 
               with my disciples?
 22:12 And he will shew you a large dining room,
              furnished; and there prepare.
 22:13 And they going, found as he had said to them, 
               and made ready the pasch.
 22:14 And when the hour was come, he sat down,
               and the twelve apostles with him.
 22:15 And he said to them: 
               With desire I have desired 
           to eat this pasch with you
                before I suffer.
 22:16 For I say to you, that from this time 
                I will not eat it, till it be fulfilled 
              in the kingdom of God.


        Gospel according to John:      
      

    (Entry into Jerusalem)
 12:23. But Jesus answered them, saying:
              The hour is come, 
              that the Son of man should be glorified.
 12:24. Amen, amen I say to you, 
              unless the grain of wheat falling 
              into the ground die,
 12:25. Itself remaineth alone. 
              But if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.
 12:26  He that loveth his life shall lose it;
              and he that hateth his life in this world, 
              keepeth it unto life eternal.

 12:27. Now is my soul troubled
              And what shall I say?
              Father, save me from this hour. 
           But for this cause I came unto this hour.

   (Last Supper)
 13:21. When Jesus had said these things, 
               he was troubled in spirit
                 and he testified, and said: 
               Amen, amen I say to you, 
                one of you shall betray me.
 16:22. So also you now indeed have sorrow; 
                but I will see you again,
               and your heart shall rejoice; 
                and your joy no man shall take from you.
 16:28. I came forth from the Father, 
              and am come into the world:
            again I leave the world, 
              and I go to the Father.

         Gospel according to  Matthew      

    (Gethsemane)
 26:37.  And taking with him Peter 
                  and the two sons of Zebedee,
               he began to grow sorrowful and to be sad.
 26:38. Then he saith to them: 
                 My soul is sorrowful even unto death:
                stay you here, and watch with me.
 26:39.  And going a little further, he fell upon his face, 
                 praying, and saying:
               My Father, if it be possible, 
              let this chalice pass from me.
            Nevertheless not as I will, 
              but as thou wilt.
         Gospel according to Mark 

 14:25. ...I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine, 
                 until that day when I shall drink it new 
              in the kingdom of God.

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